From the moment I first heard your voice, I was captivated by your talent. From the moment I watched you move, I couldn’t take my eyes off you. As the camera came in for a close up of your face, I was lost in your eyes and seduced by your smile. You captured my heart. It was the 80’s decade. I would come home from a day at school and quickly turn on MTV, hoping to see you as your short films were premiered and repeated. Singing at the top of my lungs, dancing with every beat, and having so much fun, you gave me the lift I needed in my day. Somehow, I lost track of MTV, and music in general, in the 90’s. Life got complicated and challenging, taking up all my energies. Fast forward to June 25, 2009. Your untimely and unjust death hurled me back into your world. Around the globe, hundreds of millions of people wept along with your three beautiful children and your family. At first, we all just chose not to believe it could be true. After that, we sat glued to our television sets, trying to see everything we could that kept us in touch with you. When the Memorial Service was completed and Dear Paris spoke of her Daddy, I searched for anything I could find on television that would keep me connected. That was when I realized what the media had become. I was sickened and angry at their side-show. Knowing I needed more of you, I turned to the internet for help. I soon realized the avalanche of written and visual material available. I dove in. Truly, I must say, it has been the time of my life. My emotions have gone from euphoria, to despair and indignation on your behalf, and finally, to unconditional love. I have studied and listened and danced and sang and shared…and, ultimately, found my OWN voice.
I am writing this letter as a thank you for all you have given me, for all you have given the world. I have been inspired at a level I have never before experienced. I say, without reservation, I am a better person because of you. I am a happier person because of you. I am actively involved in social justice because of you. I am a writer because of you. My creative spirit is thriving because of you. I have wonderful new and amazingly talented friends because of you. I am a voice for change because of you. I play more because of you. Because of you, I begin my day in love and, at the end of the day, feel intense gratitude.
Michael, you are needed here now more than ever. With all the love I have in my heart, to the depths of my soul, I am committed to PAYING YOU FORWARD…that is because your message, your unconditional love, is necessary for a world suffering without it. Thank you for being my teacher, my role model, my joy, my inspiration, my passion, my fun, and, for the MAGIC. I love you with all my heart. When I close my eyes, I can see you dancing with the moon, singing with the angels, creating beyond even your wildest imaginings, and giggling in God’s grace. You have earned your freedom ten times over living in a place of complete understanding and love. But, every now and then, take a moment to shine your light back here on earth, for there is no one to take your place.
You have my love and heart,