Dearest Michael,

From the moment I first heard your voice, I was captivated by your talent.  From the LOVE AGAIN TWOmoment I watched you move, I couldn’t take my eyes off you.  As the camera came in for a close up of your face, I was lost in your eyes and seduced by your smile.  You captured my heart.  It was the 80’s decade.  I would come home from a day at schoolDADDY'S GIRL and quickly turn on MTV, hoping to see you as your short films were premiered and repeated.  Singing at the top of my lungs, dancing with every beat, and having so much fun, you gave me the lift I needed in my day.  Somehow, I lost track of MTV, and music in general, in the 90’s.  Life got complicated and challenging, taking up all my energies.  Fast forward to June 25, 2009.  Your untimely and unjust death hurled me back into your world.  Around the globe, hundreds of millions of people wept along with your three beautiful children and your family.  At first, we all just chose not to believe it could beperformer true.  After that, we sat glued to our television sets, trying to see everything we could that kept us in touch with you.  When the Memorial Service was completed and Dear Paris spoke of her Daddy, I searched for anything I could find on television that would keep me connected.  That was when I realized what the media had become.  I was sickened and angry at their side-show.  Knowing I needed more of you, I turned to the internet for help.  I soon realized the avalanche of written and visual be still my heart again twomaterial available.  I dove in.  Truly, I must say, it has been the time of my life.  My emotions have gone from euphoria, to despair and indignation on your behalf, and finally, to unconditional love.  I have studied and listened and danced and sang and shared…and, ultimately, found my OWN voice.DTD

I am writing this letter as a thank you for all you have given me, for all you have given the world.  I have been inspired at a level I have never before experienced.  I say, without reservation, I am a better person because of you.  I am a happier person because of you.  I am actively involved in social justice because of you.  I am a writer because of you.  My creative spirit is thriving because of you.  I have wonderful new and amazingly talented friends because of you.  I am a voice for change because of you.  I play more because of you.  Because of you, I begin my day in love and, at the end of the day, feel intense gratitude.vanity fair

Michael, you are needed here now more than ever.  With all the love I have in my heart, to the depths of my soul, I am committed to PAYING YOU FORWARD…that is because your message, your unconditional love, is necessary for a world suffering without it.  Thank you for being my teacher, my role model, my joy, my inspiration, my passion, my fun, and, for the MAGIC.  I love you with all my heart.  When I close my eyes, I can see you dancing with the moon, singing with the angels, creating beyond even your wildest imaginings, and BREATH-TAKING TWOgiggling in God’s grace.  You have earned your freedom ten times over living in a place of complete understanding and love.  But, every now and then, take a moment to shine your light back here on earth, for there is no one to take your place.BOOK OF LOVE TWO

You have my love and heart,



8 thoughts on “DEAR MICHAEL

  1. jude that was very beautiful and true. I couldn’t have said it better myself dear. thank you so much for all you do. without michael’s love and inspiration we found love. this world is a better place because of him. we will continue to grow, love is more powerful than hate. with michael’s inspiration we will continue to inspire others.

  2. What beautiful tribute of love. It’s funny but as days and days that pass there is so much more love pouring out of the cracks of the earth. I know it because I am still struggling coming into my own with my growth. I truly am in love with the person, the myth the man. My vow to him is as strong as my vow to the Lord and his goodness is coming out in all of you people.

  3. Your words about Michael are like an echo in my heart and soul. I feel so much like you do only I do not have words to express it. I even think that the dictionary is poor to express like we feel. I have been walking along almost the same path that you have. I got to know Michael only when he died and when I saw Dangerous Bucharest playing at the supermarket after he died I could not believe in what I was seeing . I was absolutely amazed and mesmerized and from that day on I started to buy all I could find about him. And as time passed I thought I already knew something about him, but how wrong I was. It has been almost five years and still everyday I find so many new things about him!
    I really did buy dvds, cds . Everything I could find and what I could not find I downloaded(!) I have all the interviews, all the dvds on the awards, all the tours, and the MTV´s on Bad and on Dangerous and History around the world, and The Legend continues. Some time ago I bought some dvds that you can´t find any more anywhere and they were sold by some guys, one in Spain and the other in Norway. But very soon I think the Estate found out and they had to close their sites. I managed to buy some very interesting dvds on Jackson 5, the Jacksons and Michael´s travels to Germany, Japan,and others. You see, I am Brazilian and I cant find everything here that you can in the US. I bought many books and a friend from Miami has sent me some as gifts to what I am very much grateful. I am retired so I have time to be on FB everyday. My job here is when I receive by email any important news I pass it on so that the fans are updated. That is what I can do. My friends in Belgium work for Michael´s children, visiting hospitals twice a year and I help them with an offer. Here in Sao Paulo where I live I don´t know of any Michael fan and it is difficult for me because I have some friends that don´t want me to even talk about him. A granddaughter that lives with me,, don´t want to know or hear me talk about him at all. So it is kind of difficult for me. I am so happy when I see, hear or read about people who love and do what you do for his legacy. Nevertheless I find it very difficult to read about the accusations made against him. I really try not to. Just some things on All4love from Raven Woods and VindicateMJ from Elena . But it is so distressing to know what was done to this man. I can´t take it. Hope I did not write too much. It was nice to find your blog and nicer still to know of all your love and interest on him. Please keep on bringing good things on Michael as you actually are doing!!

  4. Jude, I found your site for the first time last night. For the last week, I have been dreaming of Michael and have become obsessed. Every waking moment that I haven’t had to be at my job, I have been looking and for all of the videos, articles, etc., all over the web. I was born the same year as Michael and I grew up with him and remember the very first time that I saw him, it was on the Ed Sullivan show. Over the years, I wasn’t a total MJ fan because my interest in music was very diversified. I always loved him though, and on June 25, 2009 when I learned of his passing, I was horrified and devastated.

    I followed all of news and trial, etc., but it was so, so sad that I felt that I couldn’t watch it any longer. Now, it’s June 2014 and I can’t believe that it has been five years. I do not understand why I have become so obsessed and consumed by him at this time. When I started dreaming of him a week ago, it has been every single night and so very vivid. I have been so emotional and crying but I can’t stop looking for him everywhere. I have watched “This is it” at least 20 times since I bought it Wednesday night. I can’t turn away from him.

    Since I found your site last night, I have been awake and glued, reading and absorbing everything that is posted here. I don’t know why this is happening to me right now at this time in my life. I am so glad that I found you though, I know that he will never leave me now….tears are streaming down my face as I write this. I miss him so terribly it is excruciating and I never even realized until now that I have felt this way. I don’t know what else to say.

    I miss him, I love him, he will ALWAYS be in my heart and with my soul.

    I am so grateful that I found you and your site. I will be back….Aways.

  5. I love reading these things that are posted about Michael because it makes me feel smug in knowing that there are people out there like myself that adore and love this icon, the myth, the man. I am in awe of the writing expertise of the women who write about him in their own words expressing their thoughts, views and yes gentle stories that they share here. Jude you know how I feel about you, as I have said before and I’ll say it again. Thank you for your words, for your heart and for just being Jude. I love you lady and am thankful to be on the same journey that you are on with Michaeling in our hearts, souls, and minds. Thank you for all the thoughts shared, you make the world a better place and I am humbled in your words.

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