“I don’t pay attention. (When asked how he responds to inaccurate articles) The fans know the tabloid garbage is crap.  They always say to me, ‘Let’s have a tabloid-burning.’  It’s terrible to try to assassinate one’s character.  I’ve had people come to me, and after meeting me, they start crying.  I say, ‘Why are you EMOTION SIXcrying?’  They say, ‘Because I thought you would be stuck up, but you’re the nicest person.”  I say, “Who gave you this judgment?’  They tell me they read it.  I tell them, “DON’T YOU BELIEVE WHAT YOU READ.”  Michael Jackson USA 2000 Interview

“I turn it into positive energy and write about it; it’s in my movements, it’s in the expression on my face.  And it becomes a part of me, part of my creation.  And I try not to let it get me down, because if you do, you’ll go crazy.”  TV Guide Interview 2001

“There are those that disguise themselves as legitimate, and they’re just as tabloid, NO, THEY’RE WORSE.”  Michael Jackson Steve Harvey Interview 2002smile five

“They do it simply to sell papers, because bad news sells, not good news.  They simply make it up.  If they don’t have anything, they just make it up.  I’m nothing like the way the tabloids have painted me out to be, nothing.  Nothing like that.  They’re the ones who are crazy.  They’re ignorant.  The real fans who love me know that garbage isn’t true.  They know. They’re smart.”  Michael Jackson Gold Magazine Interview 2002

vendetta:  any prolonged and bitter rivalrybeautytwelve

myth:  an imaginery or fictitious thing or person, unproved collective belief that is accepted uncritically and is used to justify a social institution…example:  belief in the biological inferiority of slaves used in support of slave societies, any invented story, idea or concept

legend:  a collection of stories about an admirable person, one who is the center ofhistory five these stories

truth: a verified fact, honesty, integrity, truthfulness, true or actual statement

“The biggest enemy of the truth begins with the lie and leads to the myth.”  Aaron Sorkin  That statement hurled its wisdom at me with ragged power while I was still reeling from vendettas fueled by evil and greed.  I wouldn’t describe myself as tough, but, my personal journey has shown a measure of resilience.  Chilled to the bone, I take to the page still believing that education is the answer, with Michael as the teacher.  Separating the facts from the myth doesn’t take a massive effort.  Michael Myth contains a fiction, unproved and ignorant of fact.  It has tentacles reaching in all directions.  With its veracity, it is accepted uncritically without fact.  The power behind it is thunderous both in its scope and its volume of sound.  “Lies run in sprints.  The truth runs in marathons.”  Michael Jackson…While I believe that with every fiber in my body…myth is a larger beast.  The take-down piece spews its venom with glee.  There is a joy in its hate, and those  who participate in the “party” get paid verybeautyten well for their efforts.

I have often said, “When you want to KNOW Michael Jackson…ASK HIM!  No one would ever describe me as computer savvy, but, even I can use the computer to locate the massive amount of footage showing Michael’s speeches, visits to orphanages and hospitals around the world, interviews, performances, song lyrics, short films, Neverland footage…all offering facts.  And, lest  the non believer find a lack of sincerity in that…a rational person would ask,  “Could someone pretend for more than four decades…could a person stubbornly hold to values and convictions year after year after year…writing about it, talking about it, LIVING IT?”  I believe in theperformance six anatomy of character.

Looking back and looking at what’s in front of me, I know this to be absolute truth…ONE OF THE FEW THINGS IN LIFE THAT DOESN’T DISAPPOINT ME IS MICHAEL JACKSON.

Each of us has been gifted specific talents.  I look around me and see that truth to be exhibited in my life every day.  It feels right for me to share what I have learned as I listen to Michael and really hear the man…REALLY HEAR THE MAN.  In sharing the words of those who lived with and love Michael, I see the fabric of his soul through their eyes and hearts.  Like so many of us, they, too, feel  the need to educate.  In an effort to continue to neuter the myth beast…I offer these for you.

“I don’t think that I can describe in one word…he was a very complex being.  To me, the greatest performer ever, and a huge musical talent and at the same time, the most gentle of souls.  Extremely thoughtful and respectful of others as well as extremely generous and caring.”  Nicholas Pike  English Film ComposerDANGEROUS EIGHT

“When he came into the studio to record, he stood before the microphone and set fire to the song.  As he left, the studio was in ashes and our jaws on the floor.  It was really impressive to see.”  Dr. Freeze Michael Jackson recording A PLACE WITH NO NAME

“I would be in rehearsals and everybody would be offered earplugs-including the dancers because the music was so loud that it would rock the floor.  And, that was because Michael wanted to feel the soul of the music.  If you watch him carefully you see that-other than when he is doing more street dancing types-there is nothing technical about what he is doing.  And, he’s brilliant.  Every dancer moves when he watches Michael move.  He makes everybody who can’t dance feel the dancer in themselves, because it comes from the heart and soul.  He just has the soul of a dancer.”  Smith Wordes  Captain EO and Smooth Criminal dancer

“I will never forget the first time that I met him…the most humble smile and the biggestbeautyeight hands.  It was an absolute honor to spend his last 3 months with him.  Even though I didn’t know him very long, the things that I learned from him and the strategy with which he put together a show is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life.  I can still hear his voice whenever anyone got frustrated…’It’s okay…this is what rehearsals are for.'”  Tony Testa Assistant Choreographer THIS IS IT

“How quickly we forget that our sojourn on earth is short.  How marvelous it is when we do something remarkable between hello and goodbye.  Here at the Soulsword Zen Community, we would like to pause and reflect on a soul who transfused us with his love energy…MICHAEL JACKSON.SCREAM THREE

The power of his spirit and its message bore witness of itself time and time again.  That message was beautiful.  By reclaiming what we once loved without apology, the public embraced redemption, the gift of heaven to all who seek it.

Michael Jackson delivered soul at full force…decade after decade.  When I watch Michael Jackson perform, I feel a spirit current flowing back through me to the source of all things.


“It was so incredible…Michael was such a sweetheart.  I didn’t know what to expect, but he ended up being the sweetest person, very kind of soft-spoken and shy, but very genuine and really respected all of us and wanted us to all shine, and that was just so amazing coming from him.  He was a hard worker…watching him work that stage was like the best school ever.  I came into this experience as a singer and I think I left having a better understanding of what it means to be an artist, because you see Michael, and every aspect of him, from the stage and design, his show and his wardrobe, lighting…it was just incredible.  It was truly inspiring to me. His vision and message to the world was always about helping people and he had such a big heart for children.  Watching his life, how he gave to so many charities, constantly helping underprivileged and handicapped children…he just had a really big daddy threeheart.”  Judith Hill  THIS IS IT

“There is no greater blessing than dancing and performing.  It is like a celebration, and when you are caught up in that place, where certain performers go when they become one with the music, one with the audience, if you are on that level, it is like being in a trance, it just takes over.  You start to play off each other and start to know where you are going before you get there.  They have got to know where you are taking it and respond.  It’s like playing Ping-Pong.  It is like when the birds migrate and they all know where they’re going.  Or like a fish…they are telepathic, they are on the same line.  That’s what happens when you perform, you are at one with the musicians and the dancers and theBEAUTY SEVEN music and you are in this trance…and, man, you got them.  They are in the palm of your hand.  It’s unbelievable.  You feel you are transformed.  It is divine, it is pure, it is revelation without making it sound spiritual or religious…but, it is a divine energy.  Some people call it spirit, like when the spirit comes into the room.  Some people look down on it.  Religions sometimes look down on it because they try to say it’s demonic, it’s the cult, it’s the devil.  It isn’t.  It is God-like energy.  You feel God’s light.”  Michael JacksonWMA THREE

“Once you believe in yourself and see your soul as divine and precious, you’ll automatically be converted to a being who can create miracles.”  Dr. Wayne Dyer


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To be educated is to embrace the truth.  It is never too late.  We, in Michael’s love community, seek  to share what we have learned, for we are obligated, feeling a responsibility to give the gift we have been privileged to receive.  MICHAEL JACKSON, IS ONE OF THE FEW THINGS IN LIFE, WHO NEVER, EVER DISAPPOINTS.  I am so very grateful to know that.  I love you all…I love you, Michael.HANDSOME THREE


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    The year 2013 has been a difficult one for me in so many ways.  And each and every aspect of the challenges has been intimately personal.  I do not enjoy living my life waiting for the next shoe to drop…but, waiting I have done and continue to do.  To think it is June, the year about to be half over, and, I continue awakening with fear.  Just when I think that we have maybe gotten to the worst of it, something unexpected happens that guts me a little bit harder.  I have always believed in prayer and have spent a good deal of time practicing that belief.  All of a sudden, I am being faced with the possibility that prayer doesn’t change a thing…that horror and evil and injustice have the power.  Much as this thought makes me go cold inside, I am wondering if there is truth behind it.

I have written about my anger at the injustice delivered onto the most beautiful human being I have ever known.  My position is clear.  I have also shared a portion of my research from the past four years.  When I say a portion…I have yet to even touch the surface of what I have learned.  I still believe that gathering facts all together in one place is an important part of PAYING MICHAEL FORWARD.  I will continue to do just that.  It is important for all who take the time to read, and, it is important for me to feel a sense of contribution in enlightening others.

Alas, I come to my heart’s wounds on this day.  Today is the day that Michael will be falsely accused once again in a Los Angeles Court.  And, yet again, the media will feed on Michael and spew their vomit out onto a believing public.  Once again, another extortionist will try to get rich on Michael’s talent and endless hard work.  And, I will die a little more inside.mtv rehearsal

But, there is something even more horrible.  Paris Jackson attempted suicide yesterday.  That beautiful, young, talented daughter of Michael’s, his little princess, the apple of his eye attempted to take her life.  I admit, that was not something I expected.  There are legions of people shocked by the news.  Gratefully, we have been told she is okay physically.  But, she is receiving medical help.  Many have speculated on the reasons that brought her to such a decision.  It isn’t my place to speak for her…she is an intelligent girl who can do that for herself.  What I will say is that, when I heard Robson on the Today Show, I was literally brought to my knees.  I called a friend to say that I was in trouble.  She came immediately and we spent the evening talking and crying.  I truly didn’t think I could live through this.  If I, an adult, felt that way…I can only imagine the terror that Paris must feel.  I try to picture what I would be feeling if someone brought those accusations against my father.  I would be panicked.  I would be desperate.

Now comes my great despair.  I cannot understand why Michael is being put through this again.  I cannot understand why his children are being made to face this each and every day.  I cannot understand why someone who gave his life to helping, rescuing, saving children must be crucified yet again by a so-called friend.  I cannot understand why Katherine must endure this again.  SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY!what more can I give

And so, I turn to the page to try and help me sort out this life I am living.  Michael’s words always teach me, calm me, inspire me.  And, I feel his love each time.  I also find help in the words of others, those who really knew Michael and cherished their time with him.   And, there are those who write from their hearts describing their insights into the man.

Cathartic as it may be to write about my pain, I want my blog to inspire and teach and give readers hope and love. So, I offer today’s posting…a time to share what I have learned from others.

“After Michael died, I read an article in a magazine about how crazy it was working with Michael: chimps and Elephant bones and snakes and so on.  I didn’t know the author nor had he ever been to the studio or ranch.  It was un-named sources and TABLOID VOMIT.  I got tired of the press and people who wanted to make a quick buck saying and writing with no shred of truth behind their words.  I wrote a few articles about my years with Michael and they were well-received.trees 

A group of Fans in Paris approached me and asked me to put together a seminar and really explore our years in the studio and at the ranch.  I began writing a book (currently in the works) which tries to recap a story that took 18 years to live.  Being totally honest, I want to try to document what it is like to work with one of the most unique entertainers in modern history.  No speculation, no deep theories, just an introduction to someone I had great respect for and considered a friend.  Yes, it might be for the Fans, but it is also for my kids, and maybe for Michael’s kids.  I want them to know what it was like to be there and to be part of such an amazing journey.

My name is Brad Sundberg and I first met Michael during the recording of Captain EO in 1985 at Westlake Studios in L.A.  I was asked to join MJ’s team as an engineer the following year for the production of the BAD album in 1986.  Then came the tour (I worked with Michael and the band to restructure the new songs for live performance, the dance moves, the short films and so on.)sweet

Then came Dangerous, Michael’s first project without Quincy Jones…another year in the studio, another tour, more short films, more remixes.

Then came HISTORY which we recorded in New York.  We were at the world famous Hit Factory for nearly a year, followed by our prep for the History World Tour.  Along the way, many songs for Blood On The Dance Floor were recorded and mixed.

When Michael bought Neverland Valley Ranch and wanted to turn it into his amazing home, he brought me up to start designing music and video systems to make it magical.  He would call me on the phone at all hours and describe a new ride or idea that he had, the petting zoo, the trains, the outdoor theatre, music around the lake, music on the stagecoach and on and on.  He loved that ranch and it always made me happy when he would be excited about my work.  I wasn’t his best friend or confidant.  I had an enormous respect for Michael, his music and his love of

When he sang Man In The Mirror, I was there.  When Michael sang vocal warm-ups before a session, I was there.  From setting up the vocal microphones and headphones to making sure the water was hot enough for Michael’s favorite drink, much of was handled by me.  I didn’t hear stories or rumors or interview people about working with Michael.  I WAS SIMPLY THERE DOING MY JOB.  It was an honor and priceless education to be part of his studio team.

Michael truly loved his fans.  There is no tribute show or seminar or movie that can replace the talent he was born with.  I was blessed to have known him and I cherish the memories of watching him practice circular moonwalks in the studio or singing scales with Seth or watching him from the wings on stage in front of 100,000 screaming fans.  I can hear his laughter as if he were sitting across the room from me.white catches the eye

HE WAS A PROFESSIONAL, A PERFECTIONIST, AN ENTERTAINER, A SINGER, A DANCER, A DAD, AND A FRIEND.  I miss him and I know you do, too.  Thanks for letting me share a few memories with you. (Brad’s seminars are schedules in Paris and Germany and New York City thus far.)  I hope when someone leaves the room after the seminar they feel as though I have introduced them to a friend.

A beautiful article came across Facebook in which I found great wisdom.  I wanted to place it in this collection of words of love for Michael.  It was written by Kimberley Jones.

I doubt there are many people on the planet who didn’t hear about the untimely death of the King of Pop Michael Jackson on June 25th 2009.  Regardless of my personal view of the pop icon (I happened to be a fan) there is no denying he had incredible energy and charisma and illuminated any stadium he graced the stage of.

There are few people in history that we know of that had that ability, that huge aura that could reach people right at the back of a 75,000 seater stadium!  So what’s that all about?  What energy are we talking about?  And was Michael Jackson a Lightworker?

Lightworkers are wired differently.  They don’t fit into the box called ‘normal’…who would want to anyway?!  Why would you waste energy trying to fit in with everyone else when as a Lightworker you are designed to stand out?  YOU ARE CREATED TO SHINE!  Michael Jackson was certainly designed to shine and shine he did.

Ligherworkers experience the  world from their heart.  They see with their hearts, they listen with their heart and they think with their heart.Smile two

Lightworkers are driven by the desire to share and serve.  To share love and inspiration, joy and wisdom and to serve others that they might live brighter lives closer to their joy and purpose.  If you ‘get’ the music of Michael Jackson then you can feel its effects deep within you.  His music carried light and power in every note and it could be felt physically and emotionally.  For me his music connected me to my joy and celebration of life.  When someone sings from their heart and soul you can just feel it…as tingles and hairs standing on end!

Music was Michael Jackson’s way of being a world healer, a channel of love and light.  The use of music to connect us with the Divine or higher powers goes back thousands of years.  As someone who has worked as a healer for many years I have experienced what can happen when a lot of light is streamed into someone’s body and energy field.  It actually brings up everything that isn’t light, it brings up what Jung called the ‘shadow’ or all the hidden, unresolved, wounded parts of ourselves that we haven’t learned to love yet.  In my experience with clients, when this happens it can get messy.  When a client’s shadow gets churned up by the light of healing the resulting feelings often get projected onto the device of healing, ie. me as the healer  or Michael Jackson as the global healer/musician.

When Michael Jackson was facing court case after court case I had an intuitive ‘download’ of information about what was happening on the collective soul level.  This perspective might not feel true for everyone but it felt then and continues to feel true for me now from my own personal spiritual a liver

I believe Michael Jackson embodied an energy of childlike innocence that was intended as a gift to the world.  It seems he was somewhat aware of this as part of his soul path.  I am not suggesting that as a human man he was without faults (who is?), but as a soul his energy gift to the planet was a return to our own purity and innocence.  So, as his music reached a peak in circulation and popularity this energy was carried on the waves of his music, reaching more and more people.  The effect of this was similar to when giving powerful healing and the kickback was the upsurge of the collective shadow all projected back onto the source of the light, Michael Jackson.  Remember, love and light will bring up anything that opposes it.  Michael Jackson’s innocence vibration brought to the surface all the related, deepest darkest fears and behaviours that some humans are capable of and they were projected onto one man.  He became the spiritual, energetic scapegoat for certain aspects of humanity to try to purge themselves of their own darkness.  This isn’t specific to anyone in particular, it was a cleansing of the collective unconscious.

It’s the familiar scenario of fingers pointing in the wrong direction and the darkness rising up, trying to maintain power in the presence of the light.  He said it himself in his own words: “if you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make that change”.  When people are pointing fearful fingers of blame it is because they fear that thing within themselves or the capacity for that thing within themselves or in those around them.the joy of giving

Child abuse is a global wound, a collective shame and pain that will not be healed by crucifying scapegoats.  It is  collective wound that requires collective healing based on truly loving ourselves and each other.

I give thanks from my heart for the man, the healer, the musician, the Lightworker, the Sensitive who fulfilled his life purpose and sadly paid the ultimate price.  I know he will continue his work of Light as a guide to others.  He is now where he can truly shine and be seen in all his love and innocence.  We all have something to learn from this man who no matter how many stones were thrown at him he continued giving and loving and shining his light, committed to his soul’s purpose in his lifetime.  For some of us who loved him we may say he was called home too soon, his heart literally broken, but we can take comfort in his music and the knowledge that his global healing work continues on this planet every time one of his songs is played.htwf

I am grateful for him, for his contribution to our own joy and growth and I will miss him.


Kimberley’s words move me to tears…and, those tears help my soul to continue its healing.  I have been lost in the struggle of trying to comprehend the WHYS.  Why is Michael continuing to be hurt by racism, greed and hate?  Why can’t God intercede and lift the constant barrage of media lies and attacks?  Why is Darling Paris having to deal with bullying and trolls and haters?  I know how often Michael said he just wanted to be left alone to create and love and live.  Why can’t that finally be?  How can someone be accused and go on trial when they are dead?  And, more and more…  The WHYS are with me throughout the day and into my sleep at night.  And, it feels desperate and unending. tear two

But, words have always helped me…words beautifully written with soul and love inspire me.  Part of the reason I am so very connected to Michael is through the power he had with words.  Kimberley’s words have given me a new insight into Michael’s aura…his light and I am lifted by them.  Thank you, Kimberley.  Thank you, Brad.  You have helped me through this day and hopefully the days to come.  My great joy will be if, when reading this blog, others feel that wonderful sense of relief that comes from understanding.mature beauty

Michael is my inspiration and my hope.  His inspiration has given me tools to become more intimate.  And, that intimacy is leading me to greater self-discovery.  Thank you, Michael.  I LOVE YOU MORE.