GONE TOO SOON

“TO DIE WILL BE AN AWFULLY BIG ADVENTURE.”

James M. Barrie

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For some, the long goodbye has a duration of years, disease ultimately winning, demanding an end.  For others the goodbye is unexpected, an abrupt, life-changing visit, compelling in its harsh chaos.  “Perhaps loving something is the only starting place there is for making your life your own.”  Alice Koller   Each of us has a love story to tell and with that telling will inevitably come goodbye, causing us to meet our vulnerabilities face to face.  Sigmund Freud taught that out of vulnerability comes strength.  For me, the loss of my parents, the loss of friends, the loss of adored pets were all visited in different durations of goodbyes.  All brought an ache that reclaims my heart still.  “Therehandsome two is a poignancy and power to beauty nearly spent.  It holds the remnant of what it was, and its fading grandeur reminds us that we die to bloom again.  We are gone to seed, according to plan.”  Julia Cameron WALKING IN THIS WORLD. 

We will all be invited to join in on the BIG ADVENTURE one day.  And when that happens, we might ask how we will be remembered.  Michael Jackson was asked that question often and he replied, “How would I like to be remembered?  As a person who came and brought light to the world, some escapism.  Also as the voice for the voiceless children, because I love them.  I’m living for the children.  If it weren’t for the kids, I would throw in the towel.  A baby, a child-now that’s amazing.  They’re little geniuses, you know, little geniuses.  They really are.  Being a father is my favorite thing.  I love it.  I love it.  I love it.”  Gold Magazine, England, Interview 2002.

Michael’s life supplies light to a world in great need of it.  “In order to carry out greatsuper bowl enterprises, one must live as if one will never have to die.”  Marquis De Vauvenargues  Michael’s enterprises on behalf of children and the planet were undertaken with no thought of failure, no concern for the status quo, and, no end in sight. He subscribed to Goethe’s theory, “That which we understand we can’t blame.” 

“Ryan White, an American teenager from Kokomo, Indiana, who was diagnosed with HIV/AIDS in 1984  when he was just thirteen years old…White was often teased and threatened at school, and when the threats turned to violence, his family was forced to leave their hometown.  White subsequently became a spokesperson for AIDS education (AIDS was deeply misunderstood and feared at the time).  Michael Jackson befriended Ryan White in 1989.  In the final years of White’s short life, the two spent many days together at Neverland, forming a deep bond and friendship.  ‘He didn’t care what race you were, what color you were, what was your handicap, what was your disease.’  recalled White’s mother, Jeanne, ‘Michael just loved all children.’  White died in 1990 just before graduating from High School.  GONE gtsTOO SOON and its accompanying video, a montage of White’s life, was Jackson’s tribute to him and his cause.  One can never choose to forget how much vitriolic hate was spewed against AIDS patients at the height of the virus’s transmission.  Jackson released his tribute at a time in the 1990’s when I can’t recall many, if any, artists willing to talk about or discuss AIDS publicly. ”  Joseph Vogel, Jason King  MAN IN THE MUSIC

“THANK YOU, MR. PRESIDENT-ELECT, FOR INVITING ME TO YOUR INAUGURATION GALA.  I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE A MOMENT FROM THIS VERY PUBLIC CEREMONY TO SPEAK OF SOMETHING VERY PERSONAL.  IT CONCERNS A DEAR FRIEND OF MINE WHO IS NO LONGER WITH US.  HIS NAME handsomeIS RYAN WHITE.  HE  WAS A HEMOPHILIAC WHO WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THE AIDS VIRUS WHEN HE WAS ELEVEN.  HE DIED SHORTLY AFTER TURNING 18, THE VERY TIME MOST YOUNG PEOPLE ARE BEGINNING TO EXPLORE LIFE’S WONDERFUL POSSIBILITES.  MY FRIEND, RYAN, WAS A VERY BRIGHT, VERY BRAVE AND VERY NORMAL YOUNG MAN WHO NEVER WANTED TO BE A SYMBOL OR THE SPOKESPERSON FOR A DEADLY DISEASE.  OVER THE YEARS, I’VE SHARED MANY SILLY, HAPPY AND PAINFUL MOMENTS WITH RYAN AND I WAS WITH HIM AT THE END OF HIS BRIEF BUT EVENTFUL LIFE.  RYAN IS GONE, AND JUST AS ANYONE WHO HAS LOST A LOVED ONE TO AIDS, I MISS HIM DEEPLY AND CONSTANTLY.  HE’S GONE, BUT I WANT HISryan LIFE TO HAVE MEANING BEYOND HIS PASSING.  IT’S MY HOPE, PRESIDENT-ELECT CLINTON, THAT YOU AND YOUR ADMINISTRATION COMMIT THE RESOURCES NEEDED TO ELIMINATE THIS AWFUL DISEASE THAT TOOK MY FRIEND AND ENDED SO MANY PROMISING LIVES BEFORE  THEIR TIME.  THIS SONG IS FOR YOU, RYAN.”

MICHAEL JACKSON

CLINTON INAUGURAL JANUARY 20, 1993

Ryan White

Ryan White, symbol of justicegone too soon

Or child of innocence, messenger of love

Where are you now, where have you gone?

Ryan White, I miss your sunny days

We carelessly frolicked in extended plays

I miss you, Ryan White

I miss your smile, innocent and bright

I miss your glory, I miss your light

Ryan White, symbol of contradictionwit one

Child of Irony, or child of fiction?

I think of your shattered life

Of your struggle, of your strife

While ladies dance in the moonlit night

Champagne parties on chartered cruises

I see your wasted form, your ghostly sight

I feel your festering wounds, your battered bruises

Ryan White, symbol of agony and pain

Of ignorant fear gone insane

In a hysterical society

With free-floating anxiety

And feigned piety

I miss you, Ryan White

You showed us how to stand and fight

In the rain you were a cloudburst of joy

The sparkle of hope in every girl and boychildrentwelve

In the depths of your anguished sorrow

Was the dream of another tomorrow.

Michael Jackson

DANCING THE DREAM

Both Michael and Ryan are now drifting in the brilliance of an awfully big adventure.  As our lives swirled in their unexpected goodbyes, each exemplified God’s image, their great love offering miracles to this world.  In the freedom of their lives, each used burdens as…”the opportunity to give expression to Divinity on earth.  When we choose to honor this priceless gift, we participate in the recreation of the world.”  Julie Cameron  Each chose this honor.

In Heaven Leigh’s book, ANGEL MICHAEL ORACLES, Ryan speaks on behalf of his children sixfriend…“Michael is like a being so far from what anyone in your world can seem to imagine that a human could be.  He shook you all up!  He isn’t complicated folks!  He came to make people smile and believe in magic again.  You all have gotten so far away from believing in goodness and magic.  Sure you have to watch out for the ‘bad guys,’ the ones who are troubled inside and visit their troubles on others.  That is so far from who Michael was and is.  I wish you could know him, know his heart like I did and like I do and always will.  He had a messed up childhood in some ways.  Some people have pain in their childhoods and they decide to get all angry.  They are suspicious of everyone and trust nobody.  Michael took his pain and turned it inside out to help other FOR THE FANSkids to have happy childhoods, no matter how sick or hurt or hungry they were.  He wanted to help them.  Some people cannot fathom this kind of unselfishness.  They look for other motives.  It says more about the people accusing Michael than it does about Michael.  Don’t you get it?  Don’t let them fool you, please.  It’s important to me.”  RYAN WHITE’S SPIRIT MESSAGE

I often think, if only I could turn back time…bring back the ones I love and hold on tight.painting  They were GONE TOO SOON and I wish with all my being I could change that.  But then, would I be denying them a great adventure…would I be denying Willa Cather when she says, “WHERE THERE IS GREAT LOVE, THERE ARE ALWAYS MIRACLES.”

Michael understood the people of the world were warm and fertile beds in which to sow his seeds of love and peace and humanity and justice.  Unconditional love was always his starting place.  A part of his great adventure NOW  is watching ourhtwten germination.

And so, amidst our goodbyes, we seek to change the world, making a little space to make a better place.  HEAL THE WORLD.  I love you, Michael!   I love you my Dear Friends.

Jude

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A LOVE AFFAIR FOR ALL TIME

beautiful sweatFEBRUARY 7, 1989  CLEVELAND ELEMENTARY SCHOOL Stockton, California

“Michael Jackson paid a visit to Cleveland Elementary School to see the children and families affected by the massacre which occurred on January 17, 1989.  Michael had just returned from his BAD World Tour.  He arrived at the school to comfort the surviving children by giving them confidence to view the world more positively after such a traumatic experience.  He visited two children who were still hospitalized and met with other children in a nearby church.   Fans gathered outside the hospital and church and school.  Michael handed out gifts to each child and autographed pictures and, BAD “T” shirts and BAD cassettes.  Patrick Prudy may have destroyed lives that day, but MJ’s presence helped bring more attention and compassion to the victims than anybody else on planet Earth could have done.  Five children had been murdered and 39 injured.  Michael visited every classroom, parents of the children at a nearby church, and the hospital.  Eight-year-old Thahn Gran, who had lost a little brother during the massacre spoke about the affects of Michael’s visit.  “I didn’t want to go back to school, but, Michael made it all right again.  If he goes there, it must be safe.  Michael is my friend and I’m very glad.”  District Support Teamsweet

In addition, Michael visits the injured and parents of the dead children offering words of sympathy, signing plaster casts of wounded children while chatting and  joking.  Afterwards, Michael said to the children in the hospital, “You are very brave.  When you are better, perhaps you will come and visit my private zoo.”  Vice Mayor of Stockton, Ron Coale, had this to say about Michael’s goodwill visits, “Words cannot say how much turmoil this town has been through the past few months.  Michael Jackson’s visit has helped us to try and overcome it a little.” MJJJustice Projectgorgeous two

To be sure, we all have experienced momentary love, that love that seems to be real, but quickly evaporates in disappointment.  The duration of time varies, but, the feelings of betrayal in the end remain the same.  Love that stands the test of time is multilayered in its scope.  If the initial racing of the heart and lump in the throat lessen, deeper levels appear that hold us in their soothing grip.  The stronger the love, the more abundant the layers.  “Michaelove”, Heaven Leigh’s beautiful word, is described by Michael as, “…the wonderful feeling you get when your soul is lifted up to become pure love.”  When speaking of the Black Tradition, he said, “The Black Tradition is a tradition of soul which is a gift of love and joy…soul is the most precious thing you can share because you’re sharing yourself and the world needs that gift now more than ever.”BOOK OF LOVE TWO

This love affair that Michael Jackson has with hundreds of millions of people is complicated in the extreme. E.M.Billeaudeaux describes it as “an intimate connection on so many levels.”   Its ripple effect is endless.  “Just when you think you know him, he gives you more!”  That is how Elizabeth Taylor described it.  David Nordahl said, “Sitting and talking to Michael, I would look into those eyes and I could see 1,000 miles.”  Michael’s Dangerous Album cover art includes those eyes…”It was supposed to be like a vision into my soul, looking into my soul,” Michael said.

“I don’t worship Michael, but I do accept his divine significance in the history of our planet.  I also love him with everything God has given me and recognize an eternal connection to him.”  tears

MICHAEL IN MY LIFE

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Michael’s iconic vocal performance, both lead and background vocals, captured hearts all around the globe.  His astounding ability to write breath-taking imaginative and unique musical compositions kept hearts beating wildly.  Visually, his amazingly good looks, “his body was his instinctual canvas.  He was a dancer to the core.” (Joseph Vogel) kept audiences wanting more and more.  Quincy Jones said he was “unlimited musically.”  His innovative, cutting edge storytelling both in vocal and visual performances have no equal.  The world of his imagination had no boundaries.  HE IS MAGIC, and WE CANNOT GET ENOUGH.  Such lovely layers.  So many reasons to be in love.  YouTube numbers, record and DVD sales since Michael left us have been greater than any LIVING artist.  When Michael walked the planet, he captured more awards, sold more records, garnered greater audiences than anyone else on the planet in the history of popular music.cute smile

We are so in love.  But, there is more.  Look back to the story we began with today.  It is not a unique tale for Michael Jackson.  It is an example of the massive number of visits Michael made to help rescue children, heal the planet, spread the love.  His unlimited, unequalled humanitarian efforts are becoming legend, taking the place of adolescent myth-media disinformation.  Now, we are getting to deeper layers of love.  Looking at books compiled by Fans: IT’S ALL ABOUT LOVE, A LIFE FOR LOVE, (Brigitte Bloemen, Marian Dobler, Miram Lohr, Sonja Winterholler), MICHAEL JACKSON FOR THE SOUL( Lorette C. Luzajic), LETTERS TO MICHAEL, A COLLECTIVE GOODBYE (Alana m. Thomas) their numbers growing daily.  We are now seeing THE NEW MEDIA coming to life as Fans express their love in so many ways.  That soothing grip elevates the soul to become pure love.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mj3MfUR35CM&list=RD-oCCnxBos10kids pics

“WHAT IS FOR CERTAIN IS THAT HE DESERVES MORE FROM THIS WORLD.  I AM STANDING UP FOR HIM, AS MANY OTHERS ARE, REGARDLESS OF ANY AND ALL BACKLASH.  I BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY THERE WILL BE AN ABUNDANCE OF BOOKS AVAILABLE, DETAILING COUNTLESS STORIES OF HIS DISCIPLES AND SOLDIERS OF LOVE AND THEIR PERSONAL CONNECTIONS TO MY SWEET MICHAEL…OUR SWEET MICHAEL.”

E.M. Billeaudeaux

You see, Fans around the world have fallen in love with Michael Jackson’s multilayered talents and character and humanity.  We are drawn to a life lived with the intention to heal the planet with unconditional love.  Our souls have been awakened like never before.  It is not a passive kind of love.  We are actively loving.  And, that love transfers its energy to a world greatly in need.cute

WILL YOU BE THERE?

Michael Jackson

Hold me like the river Jordan

And I will then say to thee

You are my friend

Carry me like you are my brother

Love me like a mother

Will you be there?

When weary tell me will you hold me?

When wrong will you mold me?

When lost will you find me?will you be there

But they told me a man should be faithful

And walk when unable

And fight till the end

But I’m  only human

Everyone’s trying to control me

Seems that the world’s got  a role for me

I’m so confused

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You’ll be there for me

And care enough to bear me?

Hold me, show me

Lay your head lowly

Gently and boldly

Carry me there

I’m only humanhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KiwqxWT4CKw

The depth of being in love is carried in Michael’s words.  An unbreakable bond has been formed.  Millions of hands join together and stretch the length and width of this planet in his name.

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“I’m going to give you some amazing secrets that hide in my songs for all to hear.  And they are not really secrets.  They may be things that you have forgotten, but they live within your heart.  I want to say this too, to those who are hearing my voice and feeling compelled to write it out-it’s me.  I write through loving, sweet, otherwise shy ones.  I compel you to open up and reach out to share my message.  And for those who don’t feel the compulsion to write-are you feeling driven to help others, heal the world by giving to charities?  Those who may have never felt this before are doing this now to honor me.  I am deeply touched that I have this effect on you.”

“THOUGH WE’RE FAR APART, YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART…YOU ARE NOT ALONE.”  Michael Jacksonprince charming

And so, My Dear Friends, this magical love affair moves toward its sixth decade.  It takes on many beautiful faces, a variety of gifts and is strengthened by souls lifted up to pure love.  Its power comes from Michael.  He has lovingly given the blueprint for change.  He has provided the outline.  We will paint in the colors.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OlpU08DkJ7g

I love you more.

Jude

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